Have you ever felt like a circus juggling act? Like you’re trying to toss around 17 balls at once and hope you catch them all and somehow look graceful while doing it?
And sometimes you’re really good at it! Sometimes you impress yourself and everyone else around you by your ability to handle so many things so well. Until your bicep cramps and you drop one of the balls. And then another. And then another.
Pretty soon it feels like all you can manage is tossing one thing back and forth between your hands.
I am a circus juggler and I always have been. I’ve always been busy, always taken on a lot. I’ve usually done a really good job at it too! But you can’t hold it all together forever and this semester I just started to let things fall.
I neglected certain responsibilities. I had probably my hardest semester at school. I didn’t do the best at maintaining my quiet times of refreshment with God. I didn’t take care of my body very well. Simply put, I stopped juggling life well.
An object in motion tends to stay in motion. So what about when you’ve lost your momentum? What about when you’re looking at all the juggling balls on the ground and you have no clue how to get them going again?
The first thing to realize is that it’s okay to not be on it 100% of the time. Life is challenging and sometimes you have to be okay with failure. Psalm 145:14 says that “The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down” (NIV). Even in our failure or struggle, God lifts us up.
When we’ve reached the end of our rope, we tend to feel alone. But God promises to always lift us up when we fall if we bow to him. So come before him in your failure and ask for help and he will give it. He’s full of grace and strength.
So maybe you’ve accepted the suck. Now take a moment and figure out what’s holding you up. Maybe it’s lack of motivation. Maybe it’s fear of failure. Maybe it’s self-protection against disappointment. Maybe it’s depression. If you can identify the problem, then you’re on the right track because to make a change, you have to know what the problem is. But it can’t stop there. Once you’ve identified it, you have to attack it.
This looks different for different issues and I couldn’t possibly pretend to have an answer for your specific situation. However, I do know that sometimes the only thing you can do is to just start acting.
Start getting up out of bed with a go-getter attitude, even if you have to force it for a while. Start sitting down and putting your nose to the grind. Start doing. We can talk all day about wanting to be certain kinds of people, but let’s be people who put actions to our words.
When you find yourself stuck, sometimes all you can do is just start tackling one thing in your life at a time. More than likely, the momentum will continue on.
I’m in this place right now. I’ve been stuck for so long, but I decided I had to just breathe and then start. Take a moment to gather myself and accept the situation, and then start to make changes and do the things I know I can do. I’m also having to accept that getting going again might be a process. But it’s a process I know I don’t want to put off.
It’s not easy. Some days I still put things off or forget the little things, but I’m trying not to let that stop me. I’m carrying through with this small scripture: Philippians 2:13 says that “it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purposes” (NIV). And I think sometimes, just getting through life well is all God asks of us.
Know today that it’s okay to get in a rut but there’s grace and strength sufficient in God to help you out of it. You don’t have to do it on your own. In fact, you can’t. Remember that God asks us to lean into him in all that we do.
This is your one and only life and only you can own it.
By: Victoria Rinear