To the girl who wanted to have it all,
I get you. I understand you. I am you.
In the fall of 2013 I was a 21-year-old girl, newly married, and a very recent Texas transplant. We’d traveled 1200+ miles away from our friends and family in order to help plant a church in San Marcos. We were so excited for the opportunities that our future held and though we had no idea at the time, our lives were significantly about to change.
I was presented with an amazing job opportunity in the foster care field, primarily working with teenage pregnant/parenting girls. I dove head first into my career, and over the next two years I began to work my way up. Today I hold a supervisor position and work between 45-50 hours on the average week. I’ve never known “hard work” in the past, the way that I do now. It’s hard. It’s exhausting. It takes sacrifice, it takes patience . . . and it is worth every minute. And that, my friends, is just my work life.
Now let me tell you about my home life. I, somewhere in the midst of that two years, decided I wanted a family of my own, a home of my own, and the most perfect marriage one could dream of. I was literally the girl who wanted it all, and that’s okay. It’s okay to want great things, to dream, and to work effortlessly to make those dreams come true as long as there is balance. I cannot work my 50 hour work weeks, prepare my home for children, and maintain the “perfect marriage” without a little bit of coffee and a whole lot of Jesus! It takes a lot of different elements to run the crazy roller coaster life that I’ve found myself living, but the most important thing that’s kept me going is finding time to give back to myself and focus on my relationship with God. You see, in my life Jesus is my “why behind the what.” Jesus is the reason why I love my job so much. Jesus is the reason that I will work so hard to keep my marriage alive and healthy. Jesus has given me this heart for foster kids, and He is the reason that my husband and I are working to become licensed foster parents. No matter what my daily/weekly schedules look like, I will always make time to sit down and focus on God’s Word. The Bible says:
“But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31
I believe that. I put my trust in knowing that God is going to get me through my tough days and empower me to love on His people. I know that God has put this passion in my heart to just spread His love. If I’m not pouring into my personal relationship with HIM, I cannot pour into other people properly.
My prayer is that you would find those moments in the midst of chaos and just cry out to God. Ask Him to be your strength when you can’t keep going. Ask Him to put you in the right place and the right time to do what HE wants you to do. Ask Him to meet you where you’re at and just see what happens. Prayer opens your eyes to the heart of God. His heart for you is never too heavy for you to handle, so give it a chance. Let God help you accomplish your dreams. Let God open your heart to the things that He cares about.
You see, I started this journey with this “picture perfect life” all planned out, but I can tell you that the very best parts of my life today are not the things that I planned. They were plot twists that God threw in front of me that I went along with and am now so happily living.
Be encouraged today friends.
God has an amazing story for your life.
You just have to be Be Still and Trust Him.
Written By: Dani Frisch